Well... He's 1!!!

Ok, I have to warn all the readers that this is going to get a little emotional so Beware!
I have had so many mixed emotions all day! I cant stop thinking about what I was doing at this exact time last year. Last night at 11:30pm... we were thinking about how my water broke and how it all BEGAN! I really wish I could go back to this day and relive it all over again. It was such an amazing, surreal, happy, emotional, adrenalin pumping through every vein day! And of coarse I say that because I know now that everything would be absolutely perfect... but when you are going through it, it is totally a different story. I keep thinking about the very first time I saw him, how he took my breath away, how he took everyone in the room's breath away. I still remember his little raspy cry, his blueish skin, the hematoma on his little skull, his adorable turned-up nose that I WAS NOT expecting, the look on Dall's face when he saw his baby boy for the first time, and the feeling I had when I held him in my arms and we just stared at each other. AMAZING! A year ago today our lives changed completely for the better... no... for the BEST. This little baby boy has brought so much joy and love and happiness in our lives. There have been so many days where we are completely overwhelmed with love as we stare at him sleeping or watch him playing. We never knew that such emotion existed until Gabe. As each month would go by and I would make my little post on the blog with his Egg Carton and his latest stats, I would get emotional every time, without fail. I get thinking about how I am never going to have that last month back with him or that he wont do "that" or "this" for the first time ever again. I just get so sad to see him get bigger and older. The list goes on and on. But I also look back at my last year with Gabe and I am amazed at how strong and eager his little spirit is. He wants to learn so much. He tests himself everyday by doing something he has not yet done. So he will try it... and hopes that the outcome is great. What a strong spirit and personality he has. He is only One and he is already starting to amaze me and Dall. Oh boy are we in for one wild ride!
So... to my Gabers, if you ever read this someday, know that you changed our world. You came to us at your Exact time! We love you so much and feel so blessed to have you in our lives. You are our World!!! Happy Birthday My Little Man.
Mommy & Daddy



Mike and Megan said...

What a cutie! I love the pic. with him eating the pumpkin. Sorry about his allergy testing, we may have to do that too, Hopefully not. You know how to throw the parties. I love the picture of your cute family.

TyandKolbi said...

It is bittersweet, huh? Oh, but think of the fun you've had this past year and all the fun yet to come!

Glad to hear his birthday was a hit - even if he didn't like the cake. Maybe next year, right?!

allieB said...

that almost just made me cry!